okay we have 3 good news and one very bad news~!!
firstly, i got to complete all my case report..which is SUPER DUPER~!!!! i stayed up the entire night finishing it...damn i was tired....i got up the next morning feeling drousy and tainted from last night exhausting brain booster...now i dont have to worry bout reports for the next couple of months...although it struck to me as a bugger that i didnt have the chance to present my case for OBGYN block...i really prepared the entire night for that too...anywayz...whats has been done cannot be undone...
second good news is that....im freaking hungry but im able to control my temptations today...do u know how difficult it is to look at a plate of rice and not wanting to eat it....HARD~!!!! extremely hard...
the third good news is WATANIAH IS OVER~!!! that means no more marching~!!! yea~!!!! marching is the worse thing in the world for me...its BORING~!!! i dont mind marching with a snare drum on the left side but plainly marching spells out the word B.O.R.I.N.G out loud~!!! when the clock struck 7...i wanted to jump for joy and shout at the top of my lungs....it was a happy moment for me...seriously...
well other then that..so far i havent really came to the real truth...the deeper darker side of me that needs revealing...MY BAD NEWS~!!!.... i think i need help, my injured leg and right arm...its getting worse...i had 2 episodes of muscle twitching around 2 am....it was ridiculously scary cause it has never happened to me before, my cousin Ilias, if he cared enough to reply my 2nd message told me it was more of a nerve damage then nerve death...but i havent really expressed to anyone the pain im going through....im afraid if it get worse, and im permanently barred from doing any physical activity...physical activity is what defines who i am...it is what that makes me different from the rest of the world....since i can't continue music cause IM HEAd oveR HeeLs with music~!!!...sports is all i have left...even though dancing is fun but it doesn't give me the adrenalin that i need when i play sports....what am i gonna do...??? everytime i wake up early in the morning, my leg hurts like hell....i couldnt even walk...~!!! whenever i pray....oh my GOD..~!!! the pain is so unbearable that i tears start streaming down my face....
when is this going to be over....~!!!! i dont know how much of this pain that i can take...maybe the doctors should stop giving me pain killers and start treating the real problem before anything bad happens to me....
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